my mother is afraid of the tide so i took her to
the cliffs, took her to the stones where the waves
crash with sound. she did not drown. she took
a stone home with her — she carries it singing
in her pocket still,
woman you are not
trapped, keep moving
we will not be swallowed —
the man i love knows how to drown. to be
carried without fear by something stronger than him.
i come to watch him bob in and out of sight —
abandon himself at the right times
and i sit here
with my oranges — he always comes back.
i can almost hear it, this heart so careful with
the body. pumping, gushing, sinking — my atrium,
hole of the heart that bleeds out and fills up again,
draining itself to drown — mother this is
a type of bravery. as in patience, the water
comes to me and i rinse my hands.
as in this body and its density, as in the tides
i pull from the cores of the men i touch —
as in i will kiss these waves when i am ready.