I ran away from the fireworks and patriotic orgies
out of the city out of the country
I drove for 7 hrs
to get to the woods into the mountains
where it’s so quiet I can hear my
heart beat
I sit in a wooden cabin at midnight
and watch the stars through the sunroof
I think of them as holes
that school-aged angels are drilling in the sky
to peek into the world of humans
for entertainment and maybe for
homework
this isn’t the first time I’m fleeing a country
because of the explosions and smell of gunpowder
burning your nostrils like shitty cocaine
and also not the first time I’m leaving familiar places
and people behind so I can listen
to my own heart beat by myself
there have been a lot of explosions lately
a lot of wounds surface wounds
and flesh wounds I ran into the woods
to lick my wounds
and have the trees and mountain ridges
be the only witnesses of my silent healing
the war inside my head has paused for a day
my heart has not paused yet
will not pause
it continues to beat
into the silence of this forest
into the stillness of this night
all the way to the stars above
I have done my homework
the angels can
copy it now
